Walk with me: Breathless

For the first time, I felt like I was at my lowest. Maybe I do not know you well enough to judge you, but it's for sure that you prejudged me. I miss you. I really do. No explanations for what, why or how did it happened for I couldn't get over you for nuts. Literally, you kept me as a toy of yours and laugh real hard for how I reacted. No matter what happen, I wouldn't mind being there for you. Again, I was just plain naive to believe that things would be better after all that took place back then.

Leaving me in despair, I feel I was stupid. Betrayal. I didn't see that coming though. I sensed something was wrong but not this. It doubles up my pain. It suffocates me when I've decided that you might be better off alone. It kills my senses not to hear,see, smell, touch you again. Be it someone you want me to be, or me as a friend.

You are on your own now. You are now.

I was at Maison on Thursday with my bunch of friends. It was good but I already had the idea of me releasing my intensity out that night. It wasn't a beautiful night for me. But I must be blissful to have my friends with me when I felt utterly disgusted, awful and embarrassed of myself. Thanks Dahlings -PeiSze, Serene, CeCe.

PeiSze for keeping up the good job as a reminder that I'm not alone and I have you girls to hold my back. Serene for taking care of me and the kindness for being able to 'jaga' me in the washroom. CeCe for lending your shoulders and ears and patience to dance with me, hear my grumbles, and to support my unstable body coordination! haha.

Anyway, I saw Jason, two David(s) *David Lai, my primary school friend whose a magician now & Lee,my online friend for years*, MingWei and his group of friends, Chi Yung, Cinvin, Kelly, Dent, and many old peeps! Maison=friends reunion.

Zhi Yuan left already to Aussie yesterday. My brother left this morning. Hsien Ju leaving nex Thurs. Lin Xuan leaving soon too.Yam Woon came back 2weeks ago. Foo Soon got back few days ago. Jessica reached home yesterday. Eileen should be few mths away from her baby birth. Uh-Realize I have sooo many things I haven't finish yet.
Enough of my ramblings, I'm off for dinner! More booze, clubbins, meetup friends, to come! tata~

Me on the way to Maison. No idea why I look weird here.