back to square one

Sometimes, I wonder if I'm girly enuf to be a girl.

I have ugly personality. Revealing alil more about myugly side..=p

*I don't clean my room as often as I look like
*I'm a procrastinator aka lazy bumbum
* I cry wheneva I'm angry
* I buy cosmetics like no one else
* I shop and eat to release tensions
* I'm grumpy in the morning or when i'm lack of sleep
* I can be very arrogant to certain ppl
* I don't know how to cross roads
* I have a very bad sense of directions
* I can be really stubborn at times
* I scold adik like no one's business

more than enuf? I need to change for the better of myself..
2007 has started off with a breakup, the death of my very close aunt aka mummy, and perhaps the friendship of my gfs n i have somehow slow down alot.
On the other hand, I gained alot of new friends and my life has been so much more merrier!
I have a crush to keep my life lighten up =)
Ashley and I are so much closer than we are all the while.
Studies so far are still under control..me like =D

I feel like a kid again, I laugh, and cry but i love the way things are fine now..
I want things to be simple, and easy

Randomnote, I think i'm not a good flirter ><

Scenario 1
"Why do you go home so early worh? go home got things to do meh?"
Bebe: I wanna do homework
** goodness, why on earth did i answer tht way..just lame

Scenario 2
The good guy comes n pick BEbe up.
Clever Bebe: "would u want anything to makan? it's dinner time, n u r here for me.."
**Bebe tapau food for the gud guy**
Or
Good guy: " what u tapau-ed for ur mum and kevin?" Bread story?
Silly Bebe: oh they want marh
Again, this is lame...how do I ever know the skills to flirt better?

Scenario 3
Friend: you should call ur crush to wish him happy valentines day
Bebe: u call on behalf of me la
AGAIN, y do i ask my guyfriend to call on behalf of me when i could've done it on my own

Scenario 4
Crush with Bebe on the same time and place *hell yeah..gud time to manja around eh?
What I did was sit aside, termenung, not look at her crush and act bodoh-ish ly..

HAHA..I guess I'm getting lamer and my flirting skills is down to ZERO!! boohoo~
Even Mummy can do better than me...She'd teach me when to sms or call my crush, how should i reply to my crush's conversation and how to dress and talk whn crush's around.

BRAVO mummy..=)